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A couple of nights ago Chip and I were snuggling in my bed and some how the subject came up and he told me:
"I don't believe in Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy or the Great Pumpkin. Mom I am smart enough to know that it is moms and dads that leave their kids presents."
My reply was:
"Well I guess since you don't believe in the Tooth Fairy she won't be
leaving you any money when you start losing those teeth you keep trying
to get to fall out, and since you don't believe in Santa Claus he won't
be bringing you any presents on Christmas."
His answer:
"Well I didn't say we had to do all that."
I swear where did my little boy go??? Sometimes I think I have a 10
year old trapped in a 6 year old body. This kid is reading on an almost
5th grade level and has the most amazing conversations.
Tonight on the way home from Cub Scouts he informed me:
"When I grow up and get married I am going to have 3 kids. Two boys,
and a girl. The boys are going to be named Charles Culbert Haynes IV,
and Charles Culbert Haynes V and they are going to be twins and they
are both going to go by Chip. My daughter is going to be named Susie."
I'm driving and listening and in awe of his plan when he tells me:
"Mom I had a dream about what I am going to be like when I grow up."
I ask him:
"Oh really what are you going to look like?"
He replies:
"I am going to look like me, only older. I'm going to wear a tie and a business shirt."
Where, I ask, does he come up with this stuff????
In roughly 4 and a half hours I will have reached the ripe old age of 31. I've been musing over the last couple of days about what turning 31 means for me and the stage of my life I am in.
For me being 31 is about finally having the self-confidence that I always wanted to have so badly when I was 21. I love me for who I am, you can love me for who I am or if not that's okay too. What other people think of me doesn't bother me one way or the other. It's a really good place to be. I've learned finally that you can't make everyone happy, and trying to only makes you miserable in the end.
Being 31 is realizing that I am okay being single. Actually there are quite a few parts of it I really like. The lack of drama, constant criticism, and not having one more person to have to do their laundry. Not to mention when it's time to watch tv I don't have to fight anyone for the remote. I watch what I want when I want to watch it. It's nice being the head of the house hold some times. I've never been the kind of person that was happy with being single before. I've learned that there are WAY worse things than being single. Being in a relationship that is the wrong one is way worse. There is a quote from a movie that I love "I'd rather be alone for the right reasons, than being with someone for the wrong." So true!
Turning 31 is also about looking at my 2 beautiful healthy babies and knowing that I am so incredibly blessed to have them and know that I wouldn't trade them for the world, and yet looking at them and being completely content to never have another one. I like just having 2 kids. At this point in my life I can't ever imagine being pregnant again and going through all the stuff that goes a long with newborns (the good, the bad and the ugly of it all). I can say that I am done with having kids and be happy of that decision and not give it a second thought.
I also know that this year ahead of me with graduating in December and starting the search for a new job, and a new place to live, whether it be here in Georgia where my mom is or back in North Carolina where my brother and so many of my friends are, is filled with so many wonderful and scary possibilities, but the main thing is whatever happens I know that me and the kids will survive it all and be better off for it. I think this coming year is going to be some kind of exciting and full of new adventures for the kids and I.
I turned in my 6 page psychology paper today at noon. It was a character analysis of a fictional character. You had to pick a fake person, and diagnose them with a disorder. It couldn't be someone like Monk where they have been diagnosed already. You had to write 2-3 pages about the person and how you know they have that problem and then 3-4 pages on the disorder. OMG! Boy was it exhausting to write. I ended up with 6 pages plus the Works Cited so I was happy.
Then had to go into class and finish up the Newsletter that my class has been working on for the last week and a half. Deadline was 3 o'clock ... well I was the Editor and I was bound and determined that we weren't going over our Deadline. Well thanks to me cracking the whip I got the paper in 46 minutes early. Mr. Foley said that had NEVER happened EVER before. So that made me feel great. He said the Newsletter looked "EXCELLENT!" and that we had a really good Editor (woo hoo go me!). Then he told us that we had just turned in our final! Woo hoo! Even better. Thank goodness I didn't realize that before or I really would have been stressing about getting it in on time. The Desktop publishing class was definitely my favorite class of this quarter by far.
I'm taking a break tonight. Then tomorrow I have my last psychology test, then I have a 250 word Discussion question to answer, then a 50 word rebuttal to someone else's question all due by Sunday. Then between tomorrow and Monday night I have to write a 3 page paper on how Ancient Greece has influenced America as a society. I some how have to find time to study for my exam in Psychology on Monday and my Humanities exam on Tuesday.
Please someone send lots of energy, and brain vibes my way please???? I'm gonna need em!
Chip got "Alvin and the Chipmunks" DVD for his birthday. Here is a video of him dancing to the music in the movie. Funniest thing I have ever seen in my life!!!! I can't wait to show all his girlfriends this when he is older. Major Blackmail material. This is better than naked baby photos!
It's been a rough few weeks. Taking 16 credit hours this quarter is kicking my booty. I'm taking Advanced Word/Desktop Publishing, Psychology 191 and Humanities 191. Can I tell you how much I hate my Humanities class? It's soooooo HARD! Knock on wood though I have an A in it at the point. Psychology is more fun than I expected but struggling with picking a character (either from book or movie or tv show) that I need to diagnose with some kind of thing (bi-polar, PT SD, OCD, ADHD or something) and it can't be something that has been hinted at before. My Desktop Publishing class is a lot of fun. We are getting ready to design a Newsletter and I got to play reporter and photog at our School Field Day on Thursday. Excuse me ... they renamed it the "Augusta Tech Games". All 3 of the campuses get together and compete and play kids games to inspire a sense of fellowship. It was fun, but I got sunburned all over face, shoulders, chest and back. Gotta love being a fair skinned redhead who is also allergic to sun screen. Did I mention the allergies? I think I should of been one of those kids in the bubble! That or I would have made a really good vampire.
He is having his school party at daycare tomorrow afternoon (have school today so couldn't do it today), and then tomorrow night we are all going to pizza hut, for pizza, video games and party stuff. I let him have a couple of his presents this morning. Most of his stuff he will open tomorrow night though. He has gotten really big in to comics and super heros and I have a friend in PA that's a big comic book guy and he was able to find me some really cool toys and comic sets that Chip is going to FLIP for. I'm so excited can't wait to see it.
Oh and he's getting a fishing rod and tackle box from my step father Richard and then we are going to try to take him fishing this weekend. Chip informed me a month or so ago that for his birthday that Papa was going to take him fishing. I asked Richard about it and he hadn't heard anything about it but decided that if the boy wanted to go fishing .. we would go fishing. Should be exciting to say the least. LOL.